Zero stars. Do not recommend. Oops\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But honestly \u2013 I would do it again. The saaaaame dang Google search. I mean, what is the first thing you want to know when diagnosed with cancer? I\u2019ll tell you what mine was. Am I going to live? How long am I going to live?<\/em> It took two weeks to find out what kind of ovarian cancer I had, after having the tumor removed. I met with my oncologist early in the day, in an office attached to the same hospital where I birthed both of our kiddos. He hadn\u2019t gotten confirmation of the specific type yet, but I came prepared with a written list of questions, the most important to me being whether they had any idea what kind it *might* be. I wanted to know, I wanted to research, I wanted a plan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Well, he did. But before he told me, he looked at me seriously and said \u201cDon\u2019t Google it.\u201d HA. I did try. I really wasn\u2019t going to do any kind of research\u2026 until we knew the type for sure. That seemed absolutely and totally and seriously maybe kind of reasonable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I made it two hours from when we got home.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Small Cell Ovarian Cancer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 10% chance of survival.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Median survival: 11 months.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I could feel the heat rise in my body. The burning fear of realizing your own mortality. I flushed, and couldn\u2019t look my husband in the eye. I was sitting on one of our couches in the living room, the one with its back to the window bay, and he was across from me on the other. I told him what I had seen, and that I was going to stop looking for now, but that if this is what it was, we were going to have a lot of work ahead of us. I wasn\u2019t going to succumb to this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A couple of hours later, my oncologist called me to confirm it was Small Cell, and we briefly discussed plans moving forward. Chemo would need to begin ASAP, I\u2019d need a port, we\u2019d need a PET scan to properly stage me. I didn\u2019t absorb a whole lot of what he shared, I just remember his kindness and empathy, that I was to try to get some rest, and we\u2019d talk the next day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So yeah \u2013 I Googled. And what I found terrified me. But it also started me down a path of researching and advocating for myself that I know played a big part in my survival. More on that in another post. My point is \u2013 no one knows what this experience is like for you \u2013 except YOU. If you don\u2019t want to look it up \u2013 don\u2019t. But if you want to \u2013 go ahead. There are no right or wrong answers here. There is only honoring what YOUR intuition is telling you to do. Love yourself, give yourself grace\u2026 and if you need someone else to Google it for you \u2013 I\u2019m your gal!<\/p>\n\n\n\n xx,<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tay<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Zero stars. Do not recommend. Oops\u2026 But honestly \u2013 I would do it again. The saaaaame dang Google search. I mean, what is the first thing you want to know when diagnosed with cancer? I\u2019ll tell you what mine was. Am I going to live? How long am I going to live? It took two […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":7105,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7103"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7103"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7103\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7182,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7103\/revisions\/7182"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7105"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7103"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7103"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loveblackbird.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7103"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}